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Grace + Peace > Strife. Also, rambles.

It has been awhile since I have returned Stateside. I have now come to a place (by the grace of God, and by said grace only) in which I can look back, sigh, and thank God for being faithful through the numerous tearful days and nights.

That transition hits you like a train, y’all – not the kind of train that you miss. Definitely not intending to say that is a closed door, either. Does transition ever fully come to a stop? My honest thought process tells me that it does not end as long as we live ever-changing, ever-transforming lives.¬†Certainly, it does take form in different shapes and sizes. I could be really dramatic and seize this opportunity to use lyrics from an Ed Sheeran or Adele song of a long lost love as an analogy to describe how it feels when the randomly occurring, yet deeply piercing moments of what seem to be a hazy past life hit you through a certain smell, craving, or the sight of a what is thought to be a familiar face…alas, I will spare you.

In hindsight, I realize that I spent much time upon return in a manner of striving, scurrying, struggling to keep from drowning. However, no tearful season passes without producing some gem:

Stop & KNOW

In scriptural terms, “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10).

“I do know that waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one’s thoughts. It is easy to talk oneself into a decision that has no permanence – easier sometimes than to wait patiently.”
the late Elisabeth Elliot, circa Passion and Purity

Striving in efforts to GO leads to stress, to anxiety, to an altogether unhealthy mindset and heart set. This is when having courage means reminding oneself of wise words: above all else, guard your heart, for out of it springs the wells of life.

Remember, steps of faith need to be steps of faith, not steps of _________.

Even in the stillness, there remain unshakable truths:

  • God is good.
  • God loves me.
  • God is working together all things for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.




Hold on to these.

This is probably an appropriate place to offer a disclaimer, or clarification of sorts. I have not given up on pursuing a life of missions. I am not waiting around for something to work out, nor a sign to be written out in the sky. I am, however, at peace with the current circumstances. Allowing my roots to grow in San Jose was not “the plan”, but it happens and it is happening for now. A missionary’s life looks different in every part of the world, but missions is everywhere because missions means as long as you are on this earth, your purpose is to love people by pointing them to the love of Jesus – and people are everywhere. This is what being “sure of the unseen” and the “wanderings of Waness” are all about. The most important thing in all of this, is to praise the Creator – without Him, none of what we do would need to be done because it is not about me nor you nor humankind. The point is to recognize the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.

So, you better recognize. (Yeah, I went there. Sorry, it had to be done.)

Sing it from the mountaintops, sing it from the valley!
As far as vision goes, mine doesn’t go very far – at least, not without major gaps. I do feel a stirring that I may be moving along soon. Although, “soon” is a relative term. Until “soon” becomes “now”, I pray this for myself and for you, dear reader: let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful (Colossians 3:15).


Introducing: More Than Nomads

Hi all, greetings from Paphos, Cyprus, where I am for another 3 months! I returned from Hungary (where I spent the last 3 months) almost a week and a half ago and the days have already been quite full. I would not have it any other way. It is lovely to be back here, reacquainting with faces and places while learning more about the warm, accepting culture. This, week we have an outreach team coming in from CCBCE in Vajta, Hungary. They are a group of 9 and we are all collectively excited and expectant for God to move in and through the whole lot of us.

Since, the last time I wrote, God has been showing me a lot about more about His calling. Especially how specifically He seems to design these callings per individual. Coming to accept the whole “3 months in, 3 months out” way about doing ministry in Cyprus helped me get to that place, spiritually.

“3 months in, 3 months out” means that I am not permanent by any means. I can stay in Cyprus for 3 months, ministering, serving amongst the people here. After those 3 months are up, I must be somewhere else, and stay out of the country for 3 months before I can come back. This means that I get to go and make disciples in multiple nations!¬† Living this way is not something I would have orchestrated by my own process of thought. However, as the pieces started to come together, the reality of who I am and how I am showed me that it all just made so much sense. Sometimes, faith makes so much sense. God designed this for me. Basically, I am a nomad…but more.

Here is a little piece from Hebrews 11, a chapter full of other like-minded folk:

These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them, embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland. And truly if they had called to mind that country from which they had come out, they would have had opportunity to return.But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them. (Hebrews 11:13-16)

These lead me to introduce my kick start project that I am hoping to implement in my blog: More Than Nomads

The desire is to share God stories of other missionaries. How they are called, led, provided for, used and so on and so forth.

We live a life of the most bittersweet farewells and the warmest hellos. There are times when life is surreal and times when life gets SO real.

The “where” is sometimes only a manifestation of latitude and longitude. Who you are and what you do is quite important. That is what goes with you. The most important is Who goes with you.

While Jesus walked on earth He went to and fro, but His heart was always connected to His Father’s. Who does His great example lead you to be? What is it that will remain with you when you go wherever you go? May it simply be your relationship with the one true God and may your eyes be set on Jesus, the perfect example of just how to be, the author and the finisher of your faith.

Friends, the call is simple: GO AND MAKE DISCIPLES OF ALL NATIONS.

This is what we are living for. Sure, it involves much adventure; the nomadic way of life becomes the normal (although, is it ever really “normal”?) for those who pick up their cross. Oh, but how sweet it is to be more than nomads.

Stay tuned to read more. Thanks for remembering me in your prayers and support. Pray for Paphos. Pray for missionaries everywhere, that the love of God would be shown and known.